Well it's been almost two weeks....

It's been almost two weeks and I still feel sad. I am looking forward to the appt with our new RE Dec 4th. I still think about the baby a lot and how far I would have been right now, and what I would have been feeling. It's also hard to see others with kids as well as I get sad thinking that would have been us soon. I know everyone says one day it will happen for us and our time will come, but right now that just doesn't seem to be the case. It's hard to think that when you are so sad.

I can't wait to get pregnant again, but I know when I am I will worry most the early pregnancy about having a miscarriage again. I am nervous about starting with the new RE and going through months of treatment and not getting pregnant. It will be so disappointing each month. Not to mention we owe money for the last treatment and testing which is probably around 700 or so plus we have the hospital bills from the two days I had to go during the miscarriage. Thinking about the money we have to spend again to get pregnant again is hard.

I just don't understand after so long of trying and going through all we have, that once we did get pregnant we had it taken away from us? I guess that's something I'll never understand.